During times of universal deceit, telling the truth becomes a revolutionary act

I have decided.. in order to feel better and NOT to think about all the time I'm just going to decide for myself how it's going to be. And even though I wish for something else I can't wait for something I'm not sure I'll ever get.. So I'm taking the hard road of..letting go. feels right in a way.. heartbreaking, but still in a strange way the only way.

Reading Orwells MASTERPIECE 1984 again and it is..(if possible) even more brilliant the second time.

going to bed, going to read some poetry from Lord Byron. yes I know I am probably the only one who does that in my age, and yes I know people thinks that is really dorky.
But I think that if you don't like, or understand or want to read the magic Byron, Yeats, More, Kipling, Blake and all my other favorites write.. well then.. well then I'm confused.
Sometimes I can feel so alone in what I like.

thirtyfour days left

thirtyfour days left to my favorite traveling destination. New York New York.
The only reason I chose 5th to 12th october is because of the New York Comic Con, which happens to be the biggest coolest thing I'v ever been to.
More and more fantastic guests are revealed, latest Bruce motherfucking Campbell! Feels like after that I can die happy.
But as comic book guest BIG stars are coming, Jim Lee, Geoff Johns, The Kubert Family, Adam Hughes, Mcniven, Brian M Bendis, Jeph loeb, George Perez and Ben Templesmith and lots more.. my oh my.
AND and.. as if that's not enough.. Katee Sackhoff from my no 2 favorite scifi series Battlestar Galactica! Can't wait..

Other than that I'm going with my two dear friends Zelda and Ricke and it's gonna be amazing.
This will be my fifth time to New York and I have a list on things we have to do cause for some reason I haven't already.
.Go to Boston (have to see the birthplace of Edgar Allan Poe)
.take a boatride around manhattan
.go to Liberty/Ellis Island


BTW. I was almost fucking jumped by 3 guys just now, man o man. never been that close. I turned around in the nick of time. Can't even walk my dog at night anymore

uhuru

To boldly go where no man or fia has gone before.

Today I'm gonna watch Burton's Alice in wonderland. Can't believe me, such a huge Burton fan takes this long to do that. But after all bad stuff I heard about it my excitement just went away..but today is the day.

making a big big big order from Adlibris.se since I'm rich now, books and comic books.

One of the coolest ones are Green Arrow Year One written by Andy Diggle who also wrote The Losers.

It has a real cool cover.

Tonight we're going to Munken where our friends are DJ:ing. but first I have to get my eyes open and get to the shower...easier said than done let me tell ya when you're this tired.

munken

fod coma. is that an international affliction or is it just me, zelda and ricke?
Man o man....We are stuck in the couch. don't think we're ever getting up.

Tynneson

What a day.
Me, Zelda, Ricke, Jossan and Calle went on a roadtrip to flea markets around Östergötland.
The first stop we made was at Fornåsa where I made such a jackpot in the book department!
My biggest joys in life is when (just wanna say first, I have a HUGE list of books I want on my fav book website and it just keeps getting longer and new prices are high when you want like 30 at a time) ... So, My biggest joys in life is when I fins one of these books in a second hand store or in a flea market. Specially when it's in English. Want to all my books on my list that are written my an English author in his/hers native language. What would Graham Greene or W. Somerset Maugham be in Swedish translation? butchered!
My point of all that was that today was a jackpot in that department! Found Henry Fielding's Tom Jones, Guy De Maupassant's Bel Ami, George Orwell's Animal Farm and W. Somerset Maugham's Of Human Bondage!
And all those books are on my Must-Buy, Must-Read lists and now I found them, inexpensive, old, worn out and wonderful.
I also found the autobiography o Charlie Chaplin, A joseph Conrad book, another Maugham, a Graham Greene one and the complete poetry of Alfred Lord Tennyson.
Yes, I put everyone to sleep in the car when I showed my findings..
sometimes I am very lonely in my passions.

convoy

To see the world in a grain of sand.. That's how my favorite William Blake Poem starts. William Blake has from the very beginning captured me, both his poems and his artwork. The first thing I ever read of him was Tyger, tyger, Which is according to me his most famous work.

Tyger Tyger, burning bright
in the forests of the night
what immortal hand or eye
could frame thy fearful symmetry?

I have been on the hunt for a complete collection of both his poems and artwork but it is easier said than done.
Blake was not very popular in his time, he criticized the Church and he was against enforced chastity and loveless marriages. He preached "free love" and he defended the right of self-fulfillment for women. He was according to some a forerunner of modern anarchism, so is his fellow English man Willam Godwin. Godwin is an author that recently caught my eye. He wrote a book in 1794 called "Things as they are; or The adventures of Caleb Williams" that I have just ordered and I am dying to read it! Godwin had just as Blake a controversial view on things, he is considered the first proponent of anarchism and was married to the famous feminist Mary Wollstonecraft. And is of course the father or Mary Shelley Wollstonecraft.

Other than my obsession of political English authors and poets I have 3 new ink-additions on my body. I have finally got an Favorite-author-tattoo! An Owl Sitting on a pile of six books and reading a seventh.
It was a real nuisance of picking out only seven.. But my final list was
Robert E. Howard
George Orwell
Howard P. Lovecraft
Robert Louis Stevenson
Oscar Wilde
Edgar Allen Ppoe
Arthur Conan Doyle

I had three more I sooo wanted on my pile, Bram Stoker, F. Scott Fitzgerald and Philip K. Dick
but the good thing there is room to pile some more books in the future.
in two weeks I'm getting Swamp Thing...woh! Always wanted that too.
The reason why I didn't get William Blake a spot in my book pile is that he is a poet and I want someday a whole poem of his tattooed in somewhere. And if I started with one poet I want all my favorite poets, Byron, Yeats, Kipling, Moore..and the list is endless.


To see a world in a grain of sand
and heaven in a wild flower.
Hold infinity in the palm of your hand
and eternity in an hour.
-Blake

That's what I want