shot an arrow into the sky

from hell.

the pic for my next tattoo for my Alan Moore leg.

Carrion Death

I have by myself decided when to leave this country for another country I've always wanted to be a part of.
thirtieth of january. After that I will, (Hopefully) not return to Sweden until 2014.

things to do before London arrives.
-Talk to my doctor about my pacemaker.
-Get the unemploymentoffice just to accept that I want to get out and study, EVEN though I have an injury.
-Get a place to stay so i don't have to lean on my friends.
-SAVE more and more and more money.
-fix so my phone becomes mine so I can get an English phone card.
-And.. Say goodbye to my friends.

The latter will be hard, specially with my best friend. don't know wehere to turn when I'm gonna need to talk.
My phone bill will go through the roof.

sO, ticket bought..Stockholm - London, January 30th. 74 SEK. roughly 10 dollars. love to fly in europe.

Dagon

Now finally all applications for studying in London are filled. Signed Sealed delivered.
So now all that's left is the waiting.. fingers crossed.

Just got a Wacom Intuos Drawing board! Been wanting one for like three years.

Now I got one and I'm very happy!

My first try was on Green Arrow.

The Four of Us are Dying

This weekend I will spend in our busy busy capital, Stockholm.

Meeting old and new friends so it's going to be a good weekend.

A Four Dollar Room

At one time I was a kid.
I had long orange hair and some called me a pumpkin,
I only watched movies from the 40's and 50's and adored the old movie stars,
I dreamt of living in the Jane Austens romantic Victorian era in England, and loved books and series about that time
I collected comic books and read everything I could find,
I ate pancakes like others eat bread,
I listened exclusivly to Irish music and I knew that I would one day live and die in Ireland,
I discovered Terry Pratchetts magical world and was thrown in to fantasy literature,
I played chess in my chess club and was bullied for it,
I only hung out with nerds and we spent every weekend with Goldeneye, Super Smash Brothers and Mario Kart,
I loved Sci-Fi movies and series and space was the most amazing place,
I cried everytime I saw an old man in a beard having trouble or was sad,
I Loved my grandmother Naima like a mother,
I knew that I one day would live abroad and have the time of my life.

Not much has changed, I have always known who I am.

An aged man is but a paltry thing, a tattered coat upon a stick
unless soul clap its hands and sing, and louder sing for every tatter in its mortal dress
-Yeats

He is so right. as always.
That's how I think now.. when everything feels like it's changing.. changing from something that was good.
For the first time in a long time I had routine and a steady home. Then came that time I have been waiting for so long with my back injury, closure. Even though I still have pain I finally got.."there's nothing more we can do" and in some way that's what I've been waiting for. To accept my life as it is, and move on. Then I realised.. I can finally study! And even though I'm only 25 and young still.. I want to study what love and learn things. Been wanting that for five years. I want to get an education and look for work in something that I really love and want to work with. Books.
So to move to the city I want to study literature is the only thing I want to do.. but that doesn't change the fact that I will miss the hell out of my friends.. my mom.. my dog. But London.. a 2 hour plane ride. So it's ok.
But.. if I don't get in to the schools I have applied for I have to look for something else and it's gonna be similar to what I'm planning now so it is what I want to do and I can see my future over there. But right now I wanna stop time so I can enjoy my friends and apartment as long as possible. But at the same time I can't wait to leave.
It's going to be the time of my life.